Oooof ~ what a time to be alive….

As natural disasters become a wave of the future, it becomes imperative to cultivate and foster communities of care wherever you are.

I witnessed it firsthand when the CZU fires knocked at my front door. Community rallied and cared for one another, sharing love and resources like our lives and wellbeing depended on it. It did. It still does.

To recognize our interconnectedness everyday is key. To see the humanity everyday in everyone is a requirement of living well on this earth.

We live in a time where there is so much seeking to divide us, to fuel flames of division and ire with our neighbors, family and friends because of differences in cultures, beliefs and opinions.

The truth is, we need eachother. And we need each other living and thriving and loving like our lives and wellbeing depends on it. Because it does.

Until we escape this beautiful hellish illusion….but if we’re living here, using this platform, we are in it.

Until that shifts, I will use my voice and my body to say the things that I feel called to share that speak to deeper truths beckoning us all.

The choices and energies we feed in every aspect of our lives and those across the planet.

We are living in a time where extraction and desecration are justified and inextricably tied to our system of government and finance at least in the western world which then rapes and pillages the non-western world to meet the endless consumer demands from an increasingly disconnected society.

It leaves many feeling alone, afraid and in a constant state of survival.

The systems that were designed to protect these pockets of power have outlived their usefulness and we are experiencing the effects of the crumbling.

Mother Earth is done with being extracted and disrespected. She is showing her strength and the beings that visit here will be reminded of their finite existence.

It is said that these types of power structures come and go and their time is will rise and fade away, but it in this current iteration of human history, there are more people than ever before.

There is more extraction than ever before to keep up with the rapidly progressing technologies we have created.

I have deep hope for a brighter future, but I believe it will come at a great sacrifice because evolution demands that.

I pray that we will all have the eyes to see

The ears to hear

The hearts to openness

And the willingness

To say the things that need to be said

And hear the things that need to be heard.

Our pain if not felt will be repeated and the ripples unknown, we can only avoid what bubbles within for so long before that pot boils over.

We reap the effects of everything we deny whether conscious or not. Just as we revel in the successes we cultivate, we swim in the juices of that which we destroy.

I pray now

I pray for those in Southern California

I pray for my family there who feel a million miles away

I pray for all marginalized and privileged folks everywhere

I pray for the people in Gaza, Congo, Sudan,

I pray for the United States, the western, eastern, northern and southern world,

The colonized and the colonizers

The people everywhere with no voice

I pray for those who’s voices drown out suffering of their neighbors

I pray for the people who do not see their own fear

I pray for those who are afraid

I pray for those suffering the wrath of nature

I pray for those who understand the deep connectedness of everything

I pray for all

I pray for love

I pray that you be seen, known and met for the glorious being that you are incarnated into

I pray for healing, deep and sustained

For all

For we are all one

Our disconnection is illusion, it is our undoing

May we remember our hearts

Our light

The love that lives and breathes through us with every action and inaction

May we remember our True Nature

May we remember the God in us

The Jesus in us

The Buddha, Krishna, Allah, Shakti in us

May we remember the Love

The only truth

May we be protected

May we protect each other

And all the tender beings that rely on our remembering

And so it is ❤️‍🩹🙏🏼

Lesson 8

My mind is preoccupied with past thoughts. ~ Lesson 8, ACIM

My mind is preoccupied with past thoughts.

Yes, yes it is.

Today, seeing the coverage of the fires in Southern California activated all kinds of thoughts and feelings about fires.

The feelings of fear and sadness and discomfort all cropped up.

Both of my own experiences with fires in the past and also empathy, compassion and concern for those navigating them now.

Allowing myself to fully feel what wanted to be felt.

The beauty of working the Course is that I recognize this thinking mind for what it is and create more spaciousness in myself to be with what is.

Not needing to fix or change, just simple presence with all of me more often.

What I see in the thoughts? An opportunity to see where I’m at in any moment.

Am I home - fully present and occupying this space witnessing what’s happening in front of me? Or am I elsewhere pulling the past and future into the now moment?

Information. Clarity. Acknowledgement of what is.

Lesson 7

I see only the past. ~ Lesson 7, ACIM

Lesson 7 points to what I have hinted at the last 6 days.

The reason for those first 6 lessons is because we see only the past.

I often talk about the human condition as like a bunch of grown children carrying around colostomy bags of 💩 that they see the world through.

The degree to which you are willing to address that bag and its leaky contents is directly tied to the possibility that you see clearly and therefore see more than just the past.

Most grown folks don’t see beyond that bag unless they are willing to get down and dirty with what’s bubbling up inside.

It’s painful.

It’s messy.

And it reveals what lurks deep in the shadows that most would prefer to keep under wraps.

For it foretells of change.

Change is also painful and messy to the one who feels safe and comfortable in the known.

Even if it (the known) feels like hell.

At least it’s less risky than the expanse of the unknown.

That is where many fall off.

This course has taken me many, many years of study to grasp the deepest truths.

It will take me a lifetime to master any of them.

The only reason I share any of this with you is to deepen in my understanding of the concepts.

I would love to hear your thoughts. How is this landing for you? What are you stepping into a week into 2025?

Lesson 6

I am upset because I see something that is not there. ~ Lesson 6, ACIM

When we feel super activated in the now, it’s typically because we have touched upon an old feeling that left a strong impression.

We then pull that ghost from the past into the present and attribute those feelings to the now thing as if it’s fresh and new.

It’s not.

It’s the brain’s attempt to categorize and make sense to gauge threat.

Basically, it’s your brain’s attempt to keep the body safe from harm and you alive.

Most of what occurs now doesn’t carry the same potential harm our pre-modern ancestors would’ve had to navigate which often threatened their very survival.

Compounded by the fact we now live in a time where responsibility and blame are outsourced right along with our power and sovereignty.

When we give this away, we forget who we are.

And how truly magnificent we are and wholly capable of navigating anything and everything as it arises.

If we recognized our connection to God and All That Is, there’d be no threat.

We’d know our safety is sourced here and now, through us and the ghosts would disappear completely.

They’d serve no function and the activation would cease and disappear again into the no thing it actually is.

Lesson 5

I am never upset for the reason I think. ~ Lesson 5, ACIM

I am never upset for the reason I think!!!

I am never upset for the reason I think???

I am never upset for the reason I think….

Say it 10 times fast! 😂

Damn, that’s good.

Straight to the heart of the matter.

Making matter of what we make matter and thinking it really matters.

Tongue twister, I know.

It’s so deep and so profound.

By getting clear on the idea that we don’t see things as they are, we see them as we are, it becomes so obvious that we are never upset about whatever we conjure to justify how we feel.

We are simply reacting to everything that’s ever happened that triggered a visceral response and this new thing smacks of that so we drag that entire past forward into the now.

And then we reinforce the justification by buying into whatever our feelings are telling us.

Learning to see through the upset (fear, disgust, anger, etc), we begin to see people and experiences as they truly are in the present moment.

No longer clinging to the filters that keep us safe and small.

More stretching and breathing room exists as we open ourselves to this revelation.

The weight we have carried….

How many of us

Have burdened ourselves

With what was never ours

The expectations of a world

Designed in exact opposition

To our true nature

Into families weighted down

By the stories of their

Forefathers and mothers

How many of us

Have carried this burden

In an effort to heal

The hearts

The minds

And bodies of our lineages

Across space and timelines

To infinity and beyond

What was never ours

To finally see

The dreams we carried

Automatically did that

Being us

Lightened the load

Even when it felt heavy

We’re always transmuting

Even when we appear

Stagnant

If you’re not growing

You’re not living

If you’re not living

You’re not here

Here is all there is

And all there is

Is No Thing

To the one

With the eyes

To see

All the thinking

And doing

And understanding

Distracts from

The moment

Of aliveness that’s here

Now

And now

And now

Wake up

Call it in

Be here now

Lesson 4

These thoughts do not mean anything. They are like the things I see in this room [on this street, from this window, in this place]. ~ Lesson 4, ACIM

The gift is seeing my mind as a tool, not truth.

And definitely not ME.

And for sure for sure not GOD.

My thoughts not meaning anything - the realization that my scary stories and 💩 conclusions could arise and pass away without my attention and examination.

Like farts on the wind.

Clouds in the sky.

Seeing this for what it is, monumental shift into Presence becomes possible.

Like the weight is completely lifted because there’s nothing there.

There’s again, just now.

And now, and now.

It’s fascinating to reflect just how far I’ve come since I first read this lesson.

It all felt esoteric and woo woo.

Something I might someday really understand.

But far away nonetheless.

Basically, my thoughts racing a million miles a minute temporarily halted the moment I took in the possibility there is another way to experience life and all the things in it.

For if I could shift the energy around how I think…..🤯

What becomes possible?

Lesson 3

I do not understand anything I see on this room [on this street, from this window, in this place]. ~ Lesson 3, ACIM

To recognize and accept that I do not understand anything, when I really took that all the way in, liberation was inevitable.

Not only did I no longer need to figure it out.

I no longer needed to assume. Or ruminate. Or judge.

Things could simply be.

So I could simply be.

And whatever needed to be understood would be revealed in time.

Or not.

And still I could simply be.

Wholly undisturbed.

Don’t get me wrong, I do not abide by this in every moment, but it settles more deeply in me every day.

And the remembrance is a gift.

To not understand anything allows me space to get curious, rather than tell myself a story.

It allows me to ask questions rather than make meaning and then attach to it.

It also makes being wrong when I do forget, feel less serious and egregious.

Which means I also am way less apt to make others wrong when I perceive something they do as not aligned with what I think they should do (which I couldn’t possibly know anyway).

Loving myself and others becomes easy.

It’s a natural expression of living with no resistance to what is present now.

I am simply the observer.

And through this lens, what’s not to love?

Even when I don’t like it I can still find the love, peace and curiosity in the space of the unknown.

Lesson 2

I have given everything I see in this room [on this street, from this window, in this place] all the meaning that it has for me. ~ Lesson 2, ACIM

When I saw this Truth for what it is, life opened up.

I could really see how I had locked myself and others into a vision that was very limited and rested on my flawed thinking and assumptions.

I saw that life and the people in it were colored by every experience I both loved and disdained.

Which meant that my mood and actions rose and fell with the stories I made about what was unfolding.

Oof. 😅

It meant a lot of highs and lows and very little wiggle room for me to just be with what is, in all its beautiful, messy glory.

The day I put down the filter that colored my world, I began to see things as they truly were rather than how I wanted or needed them to be to feel safe.

I could see people as they truly were underneath the actions and masks that they wore.

I began to see the beauty and majesty in all things, even the things I didn’t like.

I could see choices I didn’t know existed before.

That was tough because it meant greater levels of self-responsibility and less opportunity to outsource blame for what wasn’t “going my way.”

Now it feels like liberation because it ultimately means nothing outside of me can move me.

I became the safety I was seeking by trying to control what I was seeing.

Lesson 1

Nothing I see in this room [on this street, from this window, in this place] means anything. ~ Lesson 1, ACIM

Happy New Years!! ✨

Whatever today means for you ~ it is simply another day, presenting a new moment, an opportunity to choose again.

Possibilities in this realm are infinite, but they often don’t feel that way because we’ve been programmed to make meaning out of what we experience.

And depending on the life experiences you’ve had, the meaning might be really wonky.

Even when it feels like it’s going really well.

The question then becomes in those moments, will it always be this good? And how can I safeguard against it not being so?

The Truth, the kind that is divine, is that no, it won’t.

The Universe in all its majesty doesn’t work like that.

It’s simply a mirror for all that you carry into the present moment.

The good, the bad and the ugly overlaid with all the stories you made and beliefs that then were birthed up through those stories.

The point of this playground is to actually get really good with allowing what is to be, without attachment to any of it.

The more seasoned we become with doing this, the easier it is.

A Course in Miracles was introduced to me well over a decade ago by a brilliant friend whose mother taught it back in the day.

On a quest to uncover what was keeping me feeling stuck and alone, I eventually cracked the cover and so it began.

Slowly at first, I honestly didn’t understand most of it.

Ooohhh weeee did it poke all kinds of holes in my life from that day forward, though.

Always pointing me home, to the God in me connected to All That Is, even when it felt like I was running away from everything I’d ever known.

There was Truth there.

Unshakable, undeniable TRUTH.

I embarked with a willingness to be willing - my teacher said that’s all I needed.

I was so ready, I just didn’t get what that really meant then.

That friend and her mother became my teachers in a way that I felt like I actively chose probably for the first time in my adult life.

Where life until then had felt very out of my control and predetermined.

I had a plan.

I knew what to do.

How life was supposed to be.

The willingness I felt in that choice opened portals that feel like second nature now, but at that time seemed so foreign and inaccessible.

What felt mythical and frankly, completely insane to my untrained mind, all the while so incredibly activating and inviting.

So it began…..

And today it begins again.

I want to invite you in, to share with me, the journey that opens unseen doors….

And asks for everything and nothing all at once.

To BEcome the you you’ve always BEen.

Join me in this exploration here over the next 365 days…..✨💎🔮

Goodbye 2024!!!

What a year….

Wrapping up this year like dang, girl…..

How many times can I pivot, shapeshift, shed old skins?

This was absolutely the year of getting really good with non-attachment. Like real, true non-attachment without even requiring a tower moment! 😂

Don’t like that, no worries - it’ll shift.

Life feels dense and heavy, all good - the winds of change will be here in no time and you’ll forget what you’re worried about or you’ll rise from the ashes cleaner and clearer than ever.

By allowing what is, I am way more present and way more connected to truth in the moment.

Revealing all the ways in which I still indulged my people-pleaser and over-performer in certain dynamics.

What’s wild is that, in my daily life I barely bring that girl to the party anymore, so she survived in the shadows and rarely came out to play.

Where I saw her come alive was in intimate relationships with those I’ve known prior to embarking so deeply on my journey of self discovery whom I rarely see irl.

A journey many in my old life don’t care for or understand.

In a moment it became clear to me exactly how much I shielded folks from the truth of me to be liked and understood. 🤮

So, when I saw that it became very clear how much I was still hiding out of attachment to my old stories and pain.

I stopped that real quick - some folks may still have whiplash.

Me, though…my relationship with me has popped off.

The love, adoration and appreciation I have for myself and my gifts has skyrocketed. 🥰

Honoring myself through the shifts and re-examining everything I held sacred out of fear of abandonment, I dropped it all without hesitation when I saw it for what it was.

The peace and freedom I now feel on the other side is indescribable. And frankly unrelatable to most.

This journey, is so not for everyone. And that is totally okay.

I used to be sad about that and wanna drag everyone along - so I’d share and teach and tell everything I was learning to those who often found me totally insane.

Stopped that completely this year. Oooh, that was a toughie. But so worth it.

Many people still think I’m insane - good.

More evidence I’m on the right path.

MY path. Finally.

True freedom.

I recognize the willingness I have to let everything fall away that is not born of truth, love and liberation is a journey that amplifies every pain, fear, discord, exposes every lie for what it is.

Separation from Truth.

Separation from Love.

Separation from God.

The ultimate lie and one I will sacrifice myself on the altar of everyday of my life to remember my wholeness, my inherent goodness, my infinite oneness.

I become unrecognizable to even myself some days, and I feel more ME than ever before.

Thank God. ✨🙏🏼🙌🏼

No one is coming to save you….

You never needed that.

You only needed to recognize you were the one you were always waiting for.

You are the love you are seeking.

Everything else distraction and disconnection from Source, unless you do not use it to ignore You in every moment.

This will look like saying yes when you mean no.

It will sounds like no when you really want to jump off the metaphorical cliff but don’t becuse you fear what they might think.

Your holding back allows for the very things that haunt your dreams.

You thwarting you rather than submitting to the whispers of soul is why life feels like sħït.

And deep down you know it.

And that feels terrifying.

Because who will you become fully unleashed, unfiltered and free?

Who will be left when all of you is stripped to your essence free of the need to please or be understood?

You dance around the fire of you because it keeps you warm.

You step into the fire when you are ready to be transformed.

Sacrificing all that wasn’t at the alter of YOU.

The YOU that animates and breathes you even when you play at your smallness.

Are you ready to dance in the fire and BE(come) who you already are? ✨💎🔮

What now…

If you don’t move with the energy of the moment,

The energy will move you.

ALWAYS.

What’s alive is living, breathing, ripe with possibility.

Denying Her flow cuts you off

From….

What’s true

What’s real

What’s alive

You slaughter yourself before She kills who you thought you were.

Again

And again

And again.

Words are spells….

Words are spells.

Words backed with intention are magic in motion.

Words when shared with the intent to harm, have both intended and unintended consequences.

Words spoken from a place of pure love, may sting but they are medicine.

How you interpret them is up to you and it’s informed by your level of conscious awareness.

The choice is always yours.

Divine Feminine

WAVES. EBB. FLOW. DIVINE FEMININE.

The DIVINE FEMININE embodied is a force to be reckoned with.

As soothing as a babbling brook flowing and weaving through a meadow of wildflowers. As wild and free as a raging river.

As humble and gentle as a raindrop falling on the tip of your tongue. As expansive and relentless as the ocean tides.

She cannot be contained. Why would you ever want to…..really? In moments, yes…..but her power lies in her riding the waves of her soul’s deepest longings.

Sometimes that means she literally aches to be contained and restrained….to feel you hold her tight, tie her up and ravish her as if tomorrow may never come and you cannot bear the thought of life without her. Other days, it means allowing her to fly wild and free like the butterfly she morphs into when loved and cherished with abandon.

She exists to be admired. Adored. Danced with. Tasted. Felt in all her beauty and majesty in every crevice of your being.

The one that makes her want to be contained is worth his weight in gold. For He is the King of her heart and soul, the one who haunts her dreams.

She would gift him her most precious gift…….

The keys to her desire, passage to the sacred temple of her BEing, a space on the altar of her heart.

The feminine has buried her true nature and her deepest desires for fear of being devoured by an unworthy steward of the river of bliss that flows through her.

The masculine has cut himself off from his heart’s cavernous yearnings for fear of being ravaged by the deepest, darkest shadows that surface when she operates from fear and unworthiness.

The time has come to re-ignite the wet, hot inferno that is the Divine Masculine and Feminine in sacred communion.

Goddess Wisdom Circle is cast….

Who are you BEing? 

More importantly, is this truly reflective of the Truth of who you are?  

The truth before you dimmed your sparkle due to your's and others' expectations? 

The truth your heart and soul aches for you to return to?

Do you embody the Goddess who existed long before all the trauma, conditioning and life happened?

That shit robs you of your confidence and your ability to manifest the life of your dreams. 

You feel unworthy and unsure about the “right” path.

Pssst…..there is no “right” fucking path, it's only ever been what your soul is calling you to.  

You done playing small, wondering why life doesn't look or feel how you thought it should?  

There is another way.  

It is time to realign with the truth of who you are.  

Reconnect to your feminine core and just fucking DO what really lights you up! 

Goddess, it's time to rise up and dust yourself off. You were never meant to dim your sparkle and shine. Now is the time. Sisterhood is the way.

LET'S FUCKING GOOOOO!!!  You are ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS taken care of.  Trust in the wisdom of your heart, she knows what you long for forever and always.